2016年12月13日

降生在內心的小嬰孩



我年輕的時候,很努力地想要知道人生的意義,也很努力地看許多人生哲學、宗教道理。但是始終不知道,發人省思的奧義,該怎麼和我的生命結合。我不懂神,也不懂如何悟道。即使是我後來歸信了基督信仰,許多愛我的弟兄姊妹展現的愛心,加上受到基督犧牲的愛感召,見到人生的曙光,但是我卻仍不明白,這一切是怎麼發生的、為了什麼。

八年前神給我一個小孩,當我作父親的那天,我笨手笨腳地抱起那小小的身軀,她看看我,然後安穩地睡了。看著這新生命在我的手中,我的世界整個改變了,不敢說是瞬間,但是我不再是原來的我,領悟到接下來的人生,不可能只考慮自己,我將要服事一個新生命,甚至愛另一個生命過於自己,這個小小的、無助的新生命,帶來我真正的滿足與改變,是實實在在的生命,我得放棄許多過去珍惜的理想、生活方式、興趣、和朋友相處的時間、自由...未來完全改變了,一切計畫全都不確定了。但是只要嬰孩健康長大,我就有平安,喜樂,滿足。上帝藉著一個小嬰孩,改變我的一生。

我們得承認,我們尋求的神,主要是為了要解決自己外在的問題,比如要免去災難、求能力、財富。這些外在的需要,有許多神可以滿足這些。那是在傳奇故事裡的神,像是阿拉丁神燈,擁有法寶的人,可以召喚出神,他的存在就是要滿足我們的慾望。出於這個神學,我們平常就常常努力地想,如果我有三個願望,我要什麼,是用不盡的金銀,還是獲得一個黃金法則可以諸事成功,或是無災無病的附身符?這是多麼貼近人心的神呢!可惜這是人想像出來的神。
古代以色列人盼望上帝差派彌賽亞救主降臨,解決他們最大的苦難,從外邦統治和不自由中解放出來,他們的願望是合理的,因為上帝曾經帶領他們離開埃及為奴之地。他們住在應許之地,但是他們卻忽略了生命的意義,只要一個能夠解決他們問題的神。他們日日夜夜禱告,守摩西律法,盼望著得救。

上帝確實聽了以色列百姓的禱告,彌賽亞真的降臨了,但不是一個神奇的大力神來完成百姓的三個願望,而是一個嬰孩,降生在骯髒的馬廄裡!一個不但毫無能力,還需要人服事他,需要餵奶、保護他、培養他。這個嬰孩長大以後,用他的言行不斷顛覆這世界的價值觀,他要人們不要只考慮自己,離開自我中心的生命,勸大家回到內心,用誠實和心靈來敬拜神,要懷抱希望、理想,不要被現實的焦慮與衝突打敗。他終究沒有完成人們的三個願望,反而被人們送上死刑十字架,一個令人失望的神!

但是這個小嬰孩,他復活了,並且再度降生在我們的心中,讓虛無的人成為真實的人,創造與維護生命的神是不會被擊垮的,他啟示了天父的旨意,生命的意義是服事別的生命,生命的意義不遠,就在你與身邊的生命之間的愛表現出來,他自己示範生命的意義在於生命本身!一個人就算得了全世界,卻失去生命有什麼用呢?

耶穌嬰孩,是上帝給我們的小孩,他就這麼悄悄地降生在到我們的生命中,睡在我們內心卑微之深處,他不能給我們外在的願望,但是卻完全改變我們的身分,我們若要照顧自己內心那小小耶穌嬰孩,他說,就去照顧身邊最弱小的弟兄,軟弱貧窮、無能者、身心有殘缺者。小耶穌與我們一起揹起愛的十字架,雖苦,卻是有他賜的喜樂與平安。好好照顧你的小嬰孩耶穌,這是生命成長的全部意義,等他和我們一同堅強、長大了,我們既卑微又尊貴的一生也終了,回到父那裏去。

2016年12月9日

The Criticism Spirit of Kierkegaard and Socrates – A Reflection on The Problem of Populism (民粹主義的問題)

Since Kierkegaard treated his life as a copy of Socrates, he thought Socrates as a true Christian prior than Jesus. This is the metaphorical evidence that Kierkegaard was actually criticizing to renounce the wrong practice of the Church at his contemporary. Therefore, his criticism is based on his opinions against the mainstream practices of the Church members those actually disregarded the injustice regarding to the class inequality of the society. The societies today in the world also display the same problem. The criticism to the Church is also true to the Populism today.
The first idea Kierkegaard learned is the critical attitude toward the common sense and culture. Kierkegaard addresses the Daimon of Socrates is not a higher truth, but as a concept for people to think. It’s won’t take you to a new positive result of constructing a new or final solution. That’s a negative attitude toward the existing system, culture or knowledge. In his Concept of Irony, he said, “this daimonian is represented only as warning, not as commanding” (p. 159). The critical attitude is truly provoking the ways of thinking to the modern world today. We always live our lives in a principle looking for better solution toward our own situations. which are subjective truth.
The other thing he learned from Socrates is the effective criticism always comes from the subjective point of view. Even toward the knowledge we select to acquire, we don’t really know how to distinguish the knowledge may be merely a belief from a more popular research. In this case, we may unconsciously ignore the facts which has less chance to be proven. Kierkegaard explains the Daimon of Socrates (the voice of truth) is not from the system inside. The one who can give effective advice from outside is “never involved in matters of the states” (Concept of Irony, p. 160). This causes a contradiction that how can one who don’t involve a certain matter of the state really knows the problem of the certain state. So the outsider does NOT mean someone who doesn’t belong to the state as a foreigner. What Socrates wants to emphasis a position “is that of subjectivity, of inwardness,” (Concept of Irony, p.163) that is, subjectivity. In addition, we know what we know. We don’t know what we don’t know yet. Kierkegaard tells the modern people that we always need to respect different opinions which is subjective.
Today, our postmodern world, we treat subjective opinion as a right to public domain. However, the modern people still suffer in variety kinds of mental crisis. People feel the estrangement toward the group as they are highly respected while they still look for recognition and acceptance from others. It’s a never ending trail for the modern people. Considering Kierkegaard and Socrates, inside the individual, there is the truth. In order to distinguish the voice is mere thoughts of our minds or the truth, people need to adopt in a critical way as Kierkegaard did. In short, Kierkegaard tells us that we always need to respect different opinions. In the modern world today, the populism makes the democracy somehow loses its value to protect the right of every people. We see the problems today, we have great schism in different classes and believes. The worst is the unfair treatment and policies to the marginal people. The injustice state makes them anger and pushes them to recognize the Terrorism and Racism.
In conclusion, Kierkegaard eventually encouraged himself to think about the justice of God, the life of Jesus, which is only revealed in Christianity. It is the greatest contribution Kierkegaard provides to the modern people reflecting ourselves in a critical way. The modern spiritual way of life is always based on tolerance of others and inter-subjective way.